Start +9

Went to the Gym with R. I figure this is a positive step for both Physical and Emotional categories.

End result is still the same, however. R and I are still not back together and I'm still at 164 pounds.

On the monetary aspect, I borrowed 140 dollars from SS for the trip to San Diego. So now I'm not broke, and don't have to worry about that as much.

All other categories are as they were.

Start +8

Change of format. Writing in five parts is boring and tediouse to write. No doubt its no fun to read either. So here is something new.

Today I....


Played raquetball with J for an hour. We lifted weights for about that long as well. Still 164 pounds.

I did some luandry with R. I think this went fairly well. The whole lets just be friends thing still weighs heavily, but its getting easier.

All in all I think I came out on top today. I may even splurge $5 to go bowling tonight.

Start + 7

This is the first update to the initial post. I am going to try doing this everyday, for at least two months.

Physical
Weight: 164lb (this is down 11 pounds from one week ago)
I have been playing raquetball almost every day with J. Added bonus of being broke is that I do not eat fast food.

Tan: Mostly still white.
Clothes: No new clothes.

Mental
A bit of a backslide here. I have not been attending the classes I was planning to crash for this quarter. Instead I have directed my energies into recuperating for the next quarter. Have yet to pick up any books on the list.

Re-read Invisible Monsters by chuck Palahnuik.

Goal: Borrow, steal, or otherwise find a way to get these books.

Spiritual
Again, a backslide. I did not go to Passover Seder. Instead got drunk with 1) an Arab Coptic and 2) a pretty Muslim girl.

Goal: Uncertain at this point.

Monetary
Amazingly poor at this point. I have roughly 22 dollars until the 2nd of next month. This must not only last me a week here, but also a visit to NS in San Diego this weekend.

Plan: return the two polo shirts. This will tide me over
Plan, the second: Research on company. Beg Jesse to put up the website.

Start, the journey begins

This is a at core a log. It will chronicle my development as a human being for the next two months.

At some point earlier this month I found myself at a low point. Indeed, this was perhaps the lowest point I have been at for a long time. Maybe my entire life. Seeing this, I wanted to put myself together, hopefully better than I was before.

Note: This project began about a week ago. I will not post the interim data, mainly because I never bothered to gather it. I was way to busy trying to making Project into reality.

Note, the second: The Project is devided into five parts. Put them all together and you have me.

So without further delay,

Project: Me

Physical
Weight: 175
Tan: Almost none.
Clothes (Classified under physical): 1 new pair of jeans, 2 new polo shirts.

Plan: Lose up to 15 pounds, than stabilize around 160.
Goal: To look good without a shirt. Buy a decent wardrobe, facilitated by the monetary portion of Project.

Mental
Currently a math major, and not a good one at that. Not a student because university kicked me out for bad grades (despite several appeals).

Because of this lull in my mental state, I’m going to start adding new things to this category.
I have been reading sci fi almost exclusively. I want to broaden my horizons, and include new books. Therefore I want each person I respect to add one book to my list.
Book List, so far: Anna Coranina , Tolstoy
Razors Edge


Ultimate goal: Get the 3.0 in 8 units over summer session, get re-instated at UC. Eventually graduate. This is the top priority. It overrides everything.

Spiritual
Go to temple more. Learn about other religions.
Talk to Chabad Rabbi about life, and what my religion expects of me.

Learn more about other religions and actually use some of the precepts. Buddhism for meditations and yoga. Christianity for faith. Islam for obedience.

Pick up holy texts for all three.

Goal: Wisdom.

Emotional
Bone up on self esteem. I’m really a pretty good guy, I just need to remember this more often.
Firm up my relationship with a significant other. So far I have had an unhealthy image of myself as far as she goes. The effects to our relationship, needless to say, were no positive. My other top priority is to get back together with Rasha and make our relationship a positive influence in both our lives.

First step is to do what I have been doing almost every night: Talk to my friends at Java Jones. Amazingly, their advice is usually accurate, and they seem to genuinely care for my wellbeing.

Second step is to talk this out with Rasha. Make her understand that I have/will change, and that we are pretty good together.

Third Step is to raise my self esteem by:
Meeting other people.
Physical changes to my body by way of Physical category that there are many women out there that would appreciate me just as much


Monetary
Goal, the first: Get a job.
Goal, the second: Start the company I have been researching for so long, and get it off its feet. There is no excuse for wasting such a good idea!

1) Have J design the website.
2) Finish research.
3) Apply for a business license.
4) Talk to a lawyer.